*blinks* Another person with Asperger's Syndrome? Who is thinking of becoming an Eternal? Shades of deja vu here...
Okay!
I was actually diagnosed with a
mild case of Asperger's syndrome after becoming an Eternal. (My family and I had suspected for many years that I had it, since I was diagnosed with PDD-NOS before the Asperger's Syndrome diagnosis was in common use in the US, but it was never confirmed until last month.) My reasons for becoming an Eternal were
probably unrelated to Asperger's -- more a listless depression and creative block than anything else. Being an Eternal is very precious to me -- I wouldn't trade it for anything; it's part of my inner nature -- but I do know enough to say that it isn't a cureall either.
I don't know enough about your situation in specific to know if the Eternal Touch, such as it exists here, would help you with your problems. It wouldn't make you un-Asperger's for sure -- I'm proof of that -- but it might cure some specific symptoms that make life more difficult for you, like the stuttering. I honestly don't know. You will have to decide if you want it enough to take a chance on something that would significantly alter your soul, while
Becoming an Eternal is a spiritually powerful experience, but in this First Realm it's watered down by the sheer impenetrability of this specific universe to Influence and other magical energies. As a result, when we Touch people over the Internet now, it's only a spiritual change, and nowhere to the same extent as in the stories. That said, it is spiritually powerful, kind of like a "born again" experience, I would think, though I've only experienced the Touch and not a Christian "born again" experience, so I don't really know.
I'm sorry if this doesn't seem helpful... I'm probably in the best position of anyone to answer your questions, being (probably) the only person with Asperger's Syndrome who has already undergone the Touch, but I'm hesitant to compare my situation as we are all different. Asperger's is just a name for certain personality traits that are outside what's considered the "norm," after all -- not fully autistic, but closer to autism than a neurotypical person. I wouldn't want a cure for it, ut I can understand how it can sometimes make life difficult.
Oh, and welcome to MSF! I hope this place is everything you dream it might be, and, where it isn't, I hope it can become that way! You will find what you are looking for. No, that's not a threat. It's a promise.